Eventually, I returned to Berlin. Things were harder than expected. My PTSD was severe and I spent most of my days highly dissociative, feeling like the world wasn’t real and fearing that I would go crazy. I felt more alone than ever, flooded with shame for my mental being, having no one to share my experiences with. Ultimately I fell back into addiction. It wasn't until I found myself crying in a club that I realized: I hadn't gone through all that isolation just to return to the same destructive patterns. I had left, and I wouldn't go back.

I sought out professional help and began sharing my stories, inner world, and feelings. I learned how to release trauma from my body. I found safety in my body. I was witnessed, seen, and held.

Besides therapy, I continued my journey of self-healing. I explored various modalities, created a new lifestyle, discovered new passions, found safety within my body and the world, cultivated self-compassion, and undid years of shame. Ultimately, I found a purpose: to help others in the struggles I faced. The mission of letting other people not go through ‘having to do it all alone’. The mission of helping others find safety and belonging.

Over the past four years, I've extensively researched and practiced numerous healing modalities. I studied (and practiced) Internal Family Systems, Somatics, Holistic Life Coaching, Mindfulness, Neuroscience, Shadow work and Tantra. My coaching approach is a unique integration of these modalities, drawing from my personal journey of healing and transformation.

My facilitation journey started with spending multiple winters on Koh-Phangan in Thailand, assisting Tantra from the Heart on their 5 day Tantra retreats. This was the final cherry on top of the cake for my journey of stepping into my power!